I really don't know why I dread it

[janradder]

Every time I set aside time to write, I get this feeling of dread and despair. I almost feel sick about it, especially when I'm doing revisions. I think about the writing in front of me like it's going to be some horribly painful activity and there's no way I'll ever be able get it done. But then I go ahead and get started and sometimes it goes really well and the writing is easy and sometimes I struggle with it. But at the end, I always feel the same -- pumped up and excited. I just don't know why I can't remember that feeling later on, when I'm trying to motivate myself again.

Comments

[michaeljasper.livejournal.com]

Oh man, I much prefer revising! At least there's something in front of you. I'm dealing with the first-draft empty-page syndrome here -- 5 chapters written, 15-18 chapters left to draft. Ugh. That's dread to me.

Of course, the hardest part is just getting started...

[janradder.livejournal.com]

My dread of revisions is when I've got a mess on my hands that means completely redrafting what I've written or else untangling it. Either way, though, first draft or rewrites, I still have a hard time getting myself to do it.